I am not sure why I feel compelled to write this, other than, that’s what I do. I have seen so many posts about the riots. I have even seen a few about George Floyd, including the video of his death. I cannot imagine it. I watched it & still cannot, no matter what, see anything to rationalize it on any level. My heart breaks to the pits of my soul. I want to hug his mother, sister, wife…does he have them? I want to know ALL the people involved in his murder are held accountable. I want to make sure this stops-never happens again to another human being.I want to think this kind of thing just never happens, or at least know we will live in a world where it doesn’t anymore. I want to be able to tell my kids it’s all ok. And yet I sit here being bombarded by more & more disturbing images. What are we doing? When are we going to learn? How are we changing anything?

I understand the protests. This definitely needs to stop. While the officer responsible has been arrested, there should be a whole lot more held accountable-and CHANGED. What I don’t understand is why we are protesting a man being killed by killing & destroying. In what world do we scream it is not right to terrorize, bully, or kill by doing just that? How in any way is this honoring this mans life?

You want to stop the racism by screaming black man & telling people ALM is offensive because white people are not oppressed. What about other minorities? And what a racist statement to say to begin with. WHITE people? I will honestly say, my entire being was screaming at the cop, the other cop, the people filming, the people walking around…not until it was all picked apart & buzz words thrown in did I even notice that it was a black guy, a white cop, or the mix of races around. I saw a man wrongfully killed in front of so many people. I am still extremely saddened by this event. I am more saddened that it has tore a hole & put us on sides again simply based on our color. I am sad that people who had nothing to do with it are being attacked & even killed.

Again, every part of my heart goes out to his family & friends. I am sure he had them, though I have seen no coverage of it. No mention or care, support, encouragement. I know, as a mother, if that was my child I would be crushed that his death caused more violence rather than making a positive impact & uniting us to finally stand together & say this ends now.

For those of you saying BLM. Just know that I agree, as is stated when I say ALM. What I do not agree with, is the entire basis of racism-by separating people by their color-hence ALL. I fear we keep losing this battle, because we are making it a battle. We are still demanding people to choose sides by color. We are still offended by everything. We are still spewing hate & racism in front of our children. What if, instead of BLM or even saying “another black man”, we addressed the sadness of the situation-without color. Our kids, of all colors, need to know this will stop. Not the killing of blacks, whites, or any race, but the killing. And, yes, the racism.. But until WE remove the racism, we are telling our kids they need to see it. We are instilling it in our kids-racism, violence, and hate. I will not be a part of that!